Tuesday, October 30, 2018

The Cover!

Sixteen-year-old Timothy Gephart’s life is a chronicle of loser-hood. Trapped by the decaying walls of his family’s trailer and saddled with the responsibility of caring for a grandmother stricken with a wicked combination of Alzheimer’s and cancer, Timothy isn’t exactly thriving in the teenage chapter of his life. To make matters worse, his girlfriend inexplicably dumps him through a text message. Heartbroken, Tim drives his grandmother to and from her radiation treatments as if the last page of his life has already been written. And then the enigmatic Rachel Wilson struts into the cancer center’s waiting room.

Self-proclaimed social scientist Rachel Wilson hasn’t reconciled herself to her mother’s cancer, but she’s doing her best to stay positive...and distracted. With his dry wit and easy acceptance of her bright blue hair, Timothy might be the answer to a prayer Rachel hasn’t had the strength to ask.

As a fast friendship blossoms into something more, Timothy and Rachel learn that Rachel’s father’s job will soon take her family to a new life across the country. Knowing that their time together is running out, Timothy and Rachel go all in on an experiment that will put every romantic comedy cliche to the test, to say nothing of the foundation on which their relationship was built. Happily-ever-after has never been so hard.

Ebook available January 15, 2019

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Tuesday, October 2, 2018

The Spaceman: A Short Story

Classified Recording of Candidate 749’s Psychological Evaluation

Dr. Namor: “What’s keeping you here?”

Candidate 749: “Gravity.”
Dr. Namor: “Seriously, Candidate. You can leave the program at any time. You can always go home.”
Candidate 749: “Now why would anyone want to go and do a thing like that?”
0300: Approximately 3 hours and 45 minutes until launch
Joseph Redgrave slid into a booth at the 495 Truck Stop, grabbed a menu and vacantly stared at it for a few minutes.
A truck stop wasn’t his typical hangout. The smell of burnt bacon grease and stale cigarettes wasn’t something that appealed to him. But it was the only place open and better yet, no one even deigned a glance in his direction when he walked in.
A potbellied man in a corner booth lit a cigarette then punched in a number on his cell-phone. Joseph’s attention shifted from the man to a no-smoking sign posted on the wall a few feet away from the man’s booth before shifting back to the man. As he pulled in a drag, the end of the man’s cigarette lit up orange, calling to mind the glow of rocket exhaust from the archival footage of the Apollo missions Joseph watched again and again when he was a kid. Joseph’s stomach knotted up.
Did those Apollo guys get this nervous before they launched?
Joseph snapped his attention away from the man’s cigarette.
A young woman with olive skin, dark eyes, and long hair pulled back into ponytail stood at the edge of his table, holding a steaming pot of coffee. If Joseph were to venture a guess, the waitress was of Puerto Rican decent and probably 18 or 19 years old. Twenty at the most.
“It’s fresh,” she said with an awkward smile.
“No thanks,” he replied.
“Can I get you something else? A soda? A beer? An orange juice?”
Besides the alcohol, none of those things were on the prohibited list. The rest of the crew were massive coffee drinkers, but he’d never acquired the taste despite his lifelong propensity to rise early and work late into the night.
“Water,” he said, simply.
The young woman nodded. “Coming right up.”
The waitress vanished behind a set of double saloon style doors and Joseph returned to the menu. Nothing seemed particularly appetizing. But that wasn’t too surprising, considering that very little about Earth was appetizing to him anymore. This cold detachment, which didn’t fully blossom until his father passed away the night before Joseph graduated from high school, was also the decisive factor in him being selected to the mission. The admin at NASA claimed publicly that it was his superb credentials, military experience and work ethic, but Joseph had read the classified file and he knew that it was the psychologist's recognition of his borderline anti-social disorder that put him over the thousands of other applicants. Joseph wasn’t a sociopath, but just close enough to be the perfect candidate. In the psych’s words, “Mr. Redgrave is empathetic and pragmatic enough to successfully work as part of a team but lacks the ability to form personal relationships that could harm the mission.”
When Joseph had read those words initially, he’d felt a sense of relief as they confirmed something he’s always suspected about himself, but just hours before the launch they were threatening to become something else, a chain holding him to the earth. He’d mastered everything he’d ever tried to do and soon would master space travel, yet a sense of failure lurked at the edges of his mind. He had tried to attach himself to others, but he could never maintain the grip. People were just too slippery.
The young waitress returned with a cup of water and crushed ice. She placed the glass on the table.
“Do you know what you want to order?” she asked.
Joseph tapped the menu against the surface of the table. He had to order something, he couldn’t just hang out with a cup of water. He blew out a long breath. “What’s good?”
“Honestly,” she replied. “At this time of night. Nothing. But we do have a special that started at midnight.”
“Let me guess, steak and eggs?”
The woman flashed genuine surprise. “How’d you know? We haven’t even written it on the board yet?”
She gestured to a smudgy whiteboard located near the entrance that still listed yesterday’s special; fish and chips.
“Lucky guess,” he replied.
Luck had nothing to do with it. Every diner, truck stop or small-town café within a fifty-mile radius of Cape Canaveral would run the same special today. Steak and Eggs was a NASA tradition going back to when they first strapped Alan Shepherd to a 5-ton missile and launched him into space.
“Or maybe you’re one of those clairvoyants I’ve seen on YouTube. You do look familiar.”
Joseph shrugged. “I’ll take the special. Steak medium. Eggs over easy.”
The waitress scribbled his order onto a little notepad. “Biscuit or toast.”
It didn’t matter. He probably wasn’t going to touch his meal.
“Surprise me.” He folded the menu and extended it to the young woman.
The waitress scribbled his surprise onto the paper then took the menu. “Name’s Maria, just let me know if you want something else.”
Maria’s accent was unique as if it had a slight north-eastern flavor. It reminded him of his college roommate’s accent. Reggie was from New York.
Maria disappeared into the kitchen and Joseph peered out at the window. Trucks buzzed by on I-95, the roar of the diesel engines still audible over a country crooner cooing from an old jukebox. The endless parade of headlights sparked the memory of the first time he’d climbed into the kiddie version of NASA’s G-Force training centrifuge. Attached to the end of a metal arm, the machine spun him so fast that the ceiling lights stretched into a single line. He’d went the fastest and lasted the longest, his heart swelling with pride as he recounted the accomplishment to his father during the ride home from Space Camp. Of course, he left out how he fainted and woke up covered in vomit, but that would’ve made little difference anyway. His father was proud. Joseph could still feel the touch of his father’s calloused hand as he tussled his hair.
What would his father think now? Would he still be proud? Or would he be sad that his son was leaving Earth forever?
It doesn’t matter, Joseph thought, because he’s dead.
Joseph closed his eyes and pushed down the ache bubbling up inside. Time didn’t heal all wounds. 
“Excuse me, are you all right?”
Joseph opened his eyes. Maria stood at side of the booth, tiny notepad in hand.
A bit of flush rushed to Joseph’s cheeks. “I’m fine,” he said. “Just a little anxious about something.”
“Me too.” Maria lowered her left hand to her stomach.  “I’m not exactly looking forward to when I get off my shift.”
Joseph brought the glass of water to his lips. “Like working here that much, huh?”
Maria chuckled. “No. I don’t even like living in this state.”
That’s how Joseph felt about the planet.
“I can relate to that.”
“Yet here we are,” she said.
“For now…”
Her eyes narrowed and Joseph felt a sting of panic at the thought that he’d blown his anonymity.
“What do you mean?” she asked.
She still didn’t recognize him. “You’re young enough. You can move.”
“I wish it were that easy, but...”
“Why don’t you just go back home?”
Maria leaned back a bit, taking on a playfully combative posture. “How do you know that this isn’t my home?”
“You’re from the Northeast. New York probably.”
Her eyes widened. “The Bronx actually. How’d you know? Are you really psychic or something?”
“Your accent,” he replied. “It pops up here and there.”
Maria frowned. “I guess you can take a girl out of the Bronx, but you can’t take the Bronx out of a girl.”
“You make it seem like that’s a bad thing.”
Maria shrugged. The potbellied trucker lit up another cigarette. Maria glanced over, a mixture of frustration and something else, helplessness maybe, swept across her countenance as the smell of his cigarette smoke quickly filtered throughout the dining area.
“You don’t like him smoking in here, do you?” Joseph asked.
“We still have ash trays which means the owners don’t care so it doesn’t matter what I think. Even if…” She drew her lips into a line and brought her left hand to her stomach.
A realization clicked into place and Joseph slid out of the booth. “Excuse me for a moment.”
Maria stepped aside and Joseph approached the trucker. “Hey mister, can I have a word with you.”
The trucker blew out a long puff of smoke. “What do you want?”
Joseph braced himself on the surface of the table and whispered, “Normally I wouldn’t care about you smoking in here but that young waitress over there is pregnant, so do the decent thing and cut it out or take it outside.”
“Oh,” the man said, his expression shifting to one of remorse as he snuffed out his cigarette in the ash tray. “My bad.”
Joseph returned to his booth. Maria waited there with curious look on her face. “What’d you tell him?”
“I just went over there and did my best Patrick Swayze in Roadhouse impression.”
Maria crinkled her brow. Obviously she didn’t get the reference.
Joseph shook his head, “Never mind,” then quickly changed the subject. “How far along are you?”
Maria seemed a little caught off guard by the question. She titled her head slightly. “How’d you know?”
“I have a sixth sense about these things.”
This time it was a lucky guess, or a lucky hypothesis. Maria could’ve just been afraid of the dangers of second hand smoke.
“So you really are a psychic?”
“No,” he replied. “Just a jerk unafraid to make an ass out of himself by assuming a woman is pregnant.”
Maria laughed. “Now you sound like my dad.”
“Glad to hear that I’m not alone.”
“You two would probably get along real well, as long as you aren’t a Red Sox fan.”
Joseph pulled up one of his pant legs. “Whites only for me. I had a bad experience with red socks once. They turn the rest of my whites pink.”
“And that’s a joke only he would laugh at.”
“That’s two things we have in common.”
“Actually it’s three,” she said. “Because he like you was always wide awake cracking bad jokes at three in the morning.”
Joseph tipped his glass of water in acknowledgment then took a drink.
Maria turned to leave but abruptly whipped herself back around. “You’re not a baker, are you?”
“A baker?”
“You know, donuts and pastries?”
“No, why do you ask?”
“Because my dad is. He’s the second generation in a pastry shop.” She frowns again. “I was supposed to be the third.”
Joseph nodded. “Is that why you left home?”
“You ask a lot of nosy questions, mister.”
Joseph shrugged again. “People interest me.”
At least she did, for the moment.
“It was mostly because of a boyfriend…an ex-boyfriend.”
“You followed a boyfriend here?”
She sighed. “All over actually, but he dumped me here after a gig, but not before leaving me….” She placed a palm over her stomach. “At least he’s paying for the---
----Maria!” A cook in a greasy white apron smacked his hand on a bar, next to plate of steaming food. “Order up.”
“Looks like your steak and eggs are ready.”
As Maria retrieved Joseph’s order, a group of bikers walked in. They occupied an entire wall of booths. One of them cast a long glance of recognition in Joseph’s direction, then nodded. Joseph nodded back. His anonymity here wouldn’t last for long.
Maria placed Joseph’s plate of food on the table before him, then topped off his water. “You need anything else?” she asked.
“Everything looks great.”
“Good.” She reached into the pocket of her apron and produced the notepad. She tore off the bill and sat it on the table. “You can pay here or at the register. It was nice talking to you, mister.”
Joseph smiled back. “You, too.”
Just as Maria ventured over to take the bikers’ orders, a Florida State Police officer and a Military Police-woman entered the truck stop restaurant. Joseph sighed and reached for his wallet. The pair approached him.
“I’m surprised it took you this long,” he said without looking up.
“Are you aware that you are in violation of launch procedure protocol,” the military policewoman said.
“Don’t fret, I’m not trying to run,” Joseph said, counting out the money he needed to pay the bill. “I just wanted to stretch my legs a bit before I go.”
“Well I think you’ve done that enough,” she replied.
Joseph finally looked up. “One of you wouldn’t happen to have a pen on you, would you?”
The state patrolman pulled a pen from a front breast pocket and handed it to Joseph.
“Thanks, kindly.” Joseph pulled the rest of the cash out of his wallet and placed it on the table. It was a large sum, but he wouldn’t need it anymore anyway.
 “Come on, sir,” the policewoman said. “Admin is anxious to have you back.”
                “And they’ll have me back, after one last thing.”
                Joseph flipped over the bill and quickly scribed a note on the back before placing it on top of the cash. The military policewoman tapped her foot impatiently.
                Joseph piled a salt shaker on top and slid out of the booth. “Take me to your leader.”
                As the two officers escorted him out, one of the bikers shouted, “Good luck, spaceman!”
                Maria, seemingly frozen in place, stared at him with curious disbelief.
                Joseph winked at her as he passed by. “I left you a tip.”
                Without another word, the spaceman exited the truck stop.
                The Uber waited for Maria at the back of the parking lot. She climbed into the backseat, her feet aching from a long night of work and her stomach in knots. The disbelief about her encounter with the spaceman had faded, replaced with the heaviness her upcoming appointment deserved.
                The driver paid her little attention. Gripping his steering wheel, he leaned forward to peer at something though the windshield.
                A commentator spoke with restrained excitement from the car’s stereo. “This is it folks. T-Minus 10 seconds and counting…”
                The driver reached over and turned up the radio.
                “5. 4. 3. 2…”
                Her knee bouncing with nervousness, Maria glanced up from her phone. A bright light flashed across the horizon, like a firecracker bursting in the distance, followed by a streak of exhaust.
                “We have lift off! We have lift off! There it is, folks. History in the making! The first colonists of Mars are on their way, led by Commander Joseph L.----
                The driver flicked off the radio. “That was nothing like the movies,” he said, before turning back to Maria, his arm stretching over the back of the passenger seat. “1020 Wipple Road, correct?”
                Maria watched the streak of exhaust for a moment longer, transfixed by it.
                “Ma’am,” the driver said.  “The Planned Parenthood on 1020 Wipple Road, right?”
                At the mention of her appointment, she snapped back to reality.
                “Ummm, yeah.”
                The man put the car into gear and pulled away. Maria, gazed at the streak of exhaust spiraling upward, pressing against the rim of a beautiful blue sky for as long as she could, the words of the Spaceman’s message lingering in her mind until they compelled and abrupt shift inside her.
“Sir,” she said, reaching forward grabbing the driver by the shoulder. “Can you take me to the airport instead?’
“Sure, but it will cost you extra.”
Maria peered into her purse. The wad of money wrapped in the spaceman’s receipt was more than enough.
“Do you take cash?”
The driver smiled into the rearview mirror. “Sure do.”
Maria smiled back then reached for her phone. Biting down on the corner of her lip, she called a number she hadn’t in over a year.
A gruff but familiar voice picked up after the second ring. “Lugo’s Bakery, this is Diego.”
“Umm...” She squeezed the bottom hem of her dress until her knuckles turned white. “Pappi?”
“Maria. Maria! Is that you? Please tell me that’s you.”
“Yes, Pappi, it’s me.” she said, her voice cracking as tears welled in her eyes. “And I’m coming home.”
                Declassified Recording of Commander Joseph L. Redgrave’s Psychological Evaluation
Dr. Namor: “Seriously, Candidate. You can leave the program at any time. You can always go home.”
Joseph L. Redgrave: “Now why would anyone want to go and do a thing like that?”

The End
Copyright © 2018 by Sean C. McMurray

Friday, September 21, 2018

A New Release! When Hearts Collide by Sara Beth Williams

A reckless mistake landed Jacob “Jay” Mathews behind bars, but it was his inescapable guilt that led him to God. Upon his release, with the help of a spiritual mentor and friend, he strives to move forward with his life. Determined to graduate college, get a job, and follow God’s word, the last thing Jay needs or wants is a girlfriend. Until he meets Lacey Bennett.

When fervent prayers for reconciliation between her divorced parents go unanswered, and her older sister tragically dies, Lacey questions how God could allow such tragedies to befall her family. Turning her back on her past and God, she focuses on her future. College and theater are her ultimate goals; falling for the one type of guy she swore to avoid---a Christian---is not. No matter how much she wants to resist, Jay is irresistible.

As their relationship deepens, Jay struggles with Lacey’s unresolved anger and her unwillingness to even discuss faith. All he wants to do is reveal how God changed his life, but doing so would mean revealing his status as an ex convict. Finally, as she begins to rekindle her faith, past secrets collide, threatening to destroy everything they’ve built. Now, Jay must rely on his faith more than he ever has before. Can they learn to forgive---or is their relationship fractured beyond repair?



Sara Beth Williams was born and raised in Northern California, and resides with her husband and two daughters. When she’s not held hostage by the keyboard, she enjoys teaching children, playing guitar, reading, and spending time with family and friends.

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Wednesday, September 19, 2018

A New Release! The Key to Everything by Beverly Varnado

When nurse practitioner, Dr. Genny Sanders inherits her late-grandmother’s house, she moves back to her hometown of Worthville, Georgia, determined to leave her past---and her scheming ex---behind her with a new job and new friends. But during a meeting with her grandmother’s estate attorney, David Worth, she learns of a threat to her property. A local developer wants to buy her land and demolish her house.

Genny refuses to sell, but the land developer isn’t taking no for an answer. As if personal threats aren’t bad enough, a foreclosure proceeding looms, and a fire flashes in the night. Everything Genny holds dear is threatened. If she can’t find a way to save her grandmother’s house, Genny will be forced to give up the fresh start she so desperately wants. And to complicate matters further, she’s falling for David.

While going through her grandmother’s belongings, Genny finds a mysterious key with a red ribbon. What does it fit? Could it possibly be the answer to her problems? What do the message of love and forgiveness she keeps hearing have to do with everything? As she searches for these answers, she learns more about herself and her grandmother’s legacy than she could have ever imagined.

Beverly Varnado is an award winning author, screenwriter, blogger and artist who lives in North Georgia with her husband, Jerry. In addition to The Key to Everything, she has written two novels, and a nonfiction book, Faith in the Fashion District. She has a screenplay optioned for a film.

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Tuesday, September 18, 2018

A Quick Heads Up

This week I will be promoting a couple of books by some fellow authors at Anaiah Press. They are both new releases that I look forward to reading. Check out the promos later in the week!

Friday, August 31, 2018

Announcing The Mc's on Movies Podcast!!!

Calm down, ladies. The bear is spoken for.

That’s James and I, just two dudes with Irish last names who like to talk about movies.

We’ve been friends for a long time. James; my brother, Donnie; my oldest friend, Kyle; and I called ourselves the four-horsemen growing up. Though we rarely rode horses, unless those plastic ones at the mall count.

The four-horsemen. Kyle has since turned
into a vampire and no longer appears in photographs. 

Our childhood included all the normal boyhood shenanigans (you know, long bike rides down country roads, video game marathons, sinking possessed demon clown dolls into ponds, backyard football, etc.) and through it all, we discovered and developed a love for film. Whether it was peeking through the gaps in our fingers at a horror movie our babysitter wasn’t supposed to let us watch or sitting in the bed of a truck at the drive in, we consumed all that we could. From classics like Aliens or The Lion King to the wholly inappropriate for children Troma movie The Toxic Avenger, the four-horsemen watched it all. If there was a big movie, we were there.

And we loved every minute of it.

In spite of that, watching the movie was never my favorite part.

That was reserved for the moments afterword, when the four of us crammed into a booth at some unfortunate fast-food joint to discuss what we’d just watched while chowing down on whatever we could get off the dollar menu.  We were probably a little too loud as we laughed or mused about our favorite parts and definitely a little too obnoxious when we commiserated with one another about the disappointments. But those moments were some of the most fun I ever had.

So in a twist you probably saw coming, the Mc’s on Movies Podcast isn’t about the movies we review, it’s about camaraderie, the good old days, the inside jokes, the rants and endless arguments, the off the wall theories and speculation. It’s about putting on our rose-colored glasses and reconnecting with a simpler time for an hour every week. It’s about hanging with my best friends.

As we metaphorically cram into that booth at the fast-food joint, we hope you’ll join us, but even if you don’t, we’re still going to have fun.

You can find our podcasts at any of the links below:



Tuesday, August 14, 2018

A Writer's Perspective: What makes Infinity War special.

The culmination of over ten years of hard work and 19 films, Avengers: Infinity War is massive in nearly every way, from its 2 billion dollar Box Office to its larger than life villain, Thanos. 

Me rolling into Taco Bell

For such ambitious storytelling with dozens of characters fighting for screen time, a movie like Infinity War usually wouldn't work (I’m looking at you, The Amazing Spider-Man 2), but it does and one major reason why is the use of Character Goals to create conflict.

Infinity War’s overarching conflict is actually quite simple. Powerful super-villain wishes to kill half population of the universe and our beloved heroes must unite to stop him. Thanos’s effort to collect the Infinity Stones to practice population control provides the main thrust of the plot, but in general terms, this kind of conflict has been done before (in the previous Avengers movies for example). Yet, Infinity War never feels repetitive or stale. And this is where character goals come in.


With dozens of characters appearing in this one movie, there isn’t much time for character development. In fact, very few characters besides Thanos and Thor have any development at all. And the filmmakers know that, so they build tension by giving every major character a goal inside the larger goal of stopping Thanos. These goals are stated openly by the characters and are often in opposition to the goals of at least one other character. Here is a breakdown of a few of the most important:

All of these conflicts are resolved as the plot unfolds (some more dramatically than others), but there are enough to keep the characters interesting and sustain tension as the film builds toward the climatic final struggle against Thanos.

One could argue that Infinity War works because it builds on stories and characters already developed in previous films or because the filmmakers developed the heck out of Thanos*. Those are solid arguments, but I believe it’s the use of character goals to create conflict that propels Infinity War from a good film to a great one.   

*There’s a sayin' that in order to write an antagonist well, an author must understand that the antagonist sees themselves as the hero of his or her own story. The filmmakers of Infinity War took that to heart.

Tuesday, July 31, 2018

A Writer’s Perspective: What I learned from The Hate U Give

So when my wife and I watched Ant-Man and The Wasp we caught a trailer for an upcoming film called The Hate U Give, I was intrigued but my wife more so. When she found out that it was based on a book, she got a copy from our local library and consumed all 444 pages in two days (not easily done when keeping up her busy schedule). Needless to say, her wordless recommendation sparked my interest and I read it as well, completing the novel over the next four days.

The Hate U Give is from debut author, Angie Thomas and it tells the story of a sixteen-year-old from a poor black neighborhood who witnesses the fatal shooting of her childhood best friend at the hands of a police officer.

With a plot seemingly pulled straight out of the headlines, it is no surprise that The Hate U Give resonated with so many. There are hundreds of glowing reviews out there that testify to the fact but it isn’t the social commentary or even the author’s voice that I want to highlight (though those things are major reasons the book is such a success). The aspect of Angie Thomas’s writing that I wish to highlight and someday emulate is her ability to create tension and conflict through well-rounded characters.   

As I read The Hate U Give, the characters became flesh and bone in my mind, not because of physical descriptions but for their personalities, interests, desires, fears, past experiences and prejudices. In the biz they call that characterization. And it is through that characterization that most interesting conflicts in the book emerge.

 For the sake of spoilers and your time, I will try to avoid too many specifics, but I think I can illustrate my point with a quick breakdown of one essential character, the protagonist’s father, Maverick Cater.

“Big Mav” as he’s known in the neighborhood is heroic yet flawed. A reformed gang-member/ex-con who owns a small convenience store, Mav is a stern protector and provider for his family who holds high expectations for his children. For all his virtuous qualities, though, Mav struggles to overcome his own prejudices against those he feels abandoned the neighborhood for the suburbs and those in mixed relationships. His desire to stay and help his community and not be a “phony” at the expense of his own family’s safety is a major source of conflict between he and his wife in the book. His belief that romantic relationships should only be between people of the same color is a source of conflict between him and his daughter, who has a white boyfriend. These examples may seem basic on the surface but the tension they create make every interaction with Mav meaningful.

The book is peppered with characters just like Mav and it's that contrast of noble qualities and real flaws that breathe life into every character and add layers of conflict which make The Hate U Give so much more than just a book about a controversial police shooting. 

Whether you're published or unpublished, remember that tension starts with interesting characters. Characters that sometimes have angels and devils on each shoulder.

Monday, June 11, 2018

An Unbreakable Law of Nature

I’ve been busy editing my upcoming novel like a mad man, but I wanted to take a moment to highlight one of those unbreakable laws of nature I keep running up against:

Before I go any further, it must be stated that I’m not an expert on the Laws of Thermodynamics. I’m not a physicist, scientist or a great intellectual (I barely passed 10th grade Chemistry) but there’s an observation I’ve made that I’d like to pass on to you.

Entropy in its basic form is the gradual decline into disorder and it occurs when energy is no longer applied to a system. Think of your home. What would happen to it if you just completely abandoned it? 

It would decay and rot and ghosts would move in.

We observe Entropy in the natural world all the time, but what about things that aren’t as easy to see?

Say a relationship?

The romance between a husband and wife begins blazing hot but waxes cold over the years due to the stresses of family life. The best of friends drift apart as other aspects of their lives take priority.

Yep. That happens.

But what about skills? They diminish too.

Even Michael Jordan was rusty when he came out of retirement the first time.

When Jordan came back mid-season after trying his hand at baseball.

That sad truth is that Entropy happens in all kinds of places, but it’s not all bad news.

There is a remedy.

And that’s the real reason I’m writing this blog post.

I’ve tried blogging before and I failed. I just told myself that I didn’t have anything interesting to say. That may be true, but I won’t get any better at it if I don’t apply any energy to trying. 

And there it is, the rub. If we want something, a better relationship, a better foul shot, a blog that actually encourages someone, we have to try.  

It’s one of those unbreakable laws of nature.

Thanks for reading. If this encouraged you in anyway, please let me know or share it with others.

Thursday, May 3, 2018

5 Books I'm Glad My Teachers Made Me Read

I like reading. I really do and I have since I was a bobble-headed little boy. But back in school, I loathed the days when a teacher would force us to read a book/play. Nothing against my teachers, they were great, but my rebellious human nature wanted more say in that part of my education.  I wasn’t alone either, I remember the collective sigh from my classmates when the books were passed out. Fortunately, only a few of the books/plays were duds (I’m looking at you The Glass Menagerie). For the most part, they were pretty good, but there were some that really stood out.

So without further ado, here's five books that I'm glad my teachers made me read.


Orwell uses a scant 112 pages to deconstruct and satirize the rise of Communism using farm animals. As a fan of history and a rural Ohioan, this one really resonated with me.


A survivor of the holocaust, Eli Wiesel, recounts his time in multiple concentration camps. Straightforward and tragic, this staple of Holocaust literature was one the first books that I can remember having a deeply emotional impact on me.


Not one of my favorite books by any means, but the story of the Creighton family’s plight during the American Civil War sparked my interest in the great conflict which still lasts to this day.


No joke, when my teacher first passed out this book to us, I thought it was about killing mocking birds. What I soon learned was that Harper Lee’s novel is something much different (and something much more).


The first time I cried while reading a book (and again when I watched the movie).

So that’s my list.  Have you read any of these? If so, did you have a similar reaction? Let me know in the comments and list some of your favorites as well.

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Thanks and God bless!

Friday, April 20, 2018

Getting Published Part 2: Five Years of Guerrilla Warfare

NOTE: This is part 2 in an ongoing series detailing my rocky road to getting published. My hope is that you will be encourage by what you read and learn from my mistakes. Part 1: Meeting you is linked here http://www.mcmurraymuses.com/2018/03/getting-published-part-1-meeting-you.html

Now on with it!

I first met John after he'd spent the day skirmishing with Confederate troops. He sat on a fallen tree, hollow eyed and exhausted with sweat dripping from his brow. I hadn't witnessed the battle, arriving just as the last of the gun smoke melded into the haze of a sticky June evening. The young soldier, clad in the Union blue, was pensive. I breathed in deep, then took a seat beside him. My nostrils clenched up immediately. The boy stank to high heaven!  Of sweat, gunpowder and blood. I gagged and coughed but the soldier didn't notice, he was lost in the setting sun.  The way he watched the slash of dying light across the horizon, regarding the shifting of color with a kind of reverence often reserved for a communion service, warned me not to intrude with words. I knew what was on his mind though, or I should say, who was on his mind. A girl---his girl---Sara.

And then I was back in a windowless basement classroom and John was gone.

But not forever. That brief moment, would be the first of many spent with John as he and his fellow soldiers hunted a dangerous band of guerrillas along the Kansas-Missouri border during the American Civil War.

Guerrillas, not Gorillas.

In the Spring of 2007 I wasn't thinking about writing a book or telling that story. My mind was elsewhere (like finishing my teaching degree, getting married, dinner) but the image of that weary, young soldier lingered until one summer night I cracked open my laptop and began to write.

I wish I could say that words flowed onto the page like my fingers were streams of literary awesomeness, but that would be dishonest. The first night produced one opening paragraph, pretty much the moment described above, but when I finally hit the save button and closed my computer after a few hours of work, I felt like I'd actually achieved something. I enjoyed it.

I hung out with John off and on that summer even after I got married and though he was a little awkward and shy I learned that he was a very loyal friend and a lethal soldier.  After a year I had several chapters and I started to believe John and I really may just finish this tour of duty.

But then this happened!

And this!

Baby Girl #1

At the same time.

And John faded into the background...until January of 2010, when I needed him the most.

The recession and housing crisis had taken it's toll on my school district's tax base and budget cuts had to be made.

Toddler + Pregnant Wife - Single Income(very few job openings) = Lots of worry and Lots of prayer.

It was then in the midst of another sleepless night that I cracked open my laptop and said hello to an old friend.  John's problems (and there were many) proved to be a worthy distraction from my own and I'd soon written several more chapters.

Then this happened!

The prayers worked, I was hired the day before school began again. 

And this!

Baby Girl #2

Though my life was super busy, I didn't stop writing this time. In between toddler chasing, lesson planning, ball coachin' and dirty diapers, I found time to hang out with John and after nearly 5 years of guerrilla warfare---I mean---writing, we finished our tour of duty in late 2011.

John's story isn't pretty, there's too much telling rather than showing, the dialogue is stilted, it relies too much on flashbacks and not all the characters are fully developed. I'm still proud of it though. In spite of its flaws, that book is probably the most important piece of fiction I've ever written for one simple fact:

I proved to myself that I could actually write a book.

So if you're reading this and you're thinking about writing a book, do it!

If you're bogged down in the middle of a book, push through and finish it!

If you've written a book and you're trying to get it published, don't give up! Persevere!

That was the greatest lesson John taught me. To persevere to the end and though it wasn't easy, I'm glad I did.


Fresh off the completion of his first novel, intrepid wannabe author, Sean McMurray, falls in with an ex-spy seeking vengeance for his wife's brutal murder. Will he survive?..

Yes. Yes he will.

But will he gain new literary insight?

Tune into "Getting Published Part 3: Eye Spy" to find out!

Thanks for reading! God Bless!

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

Getting Published Part 1: Meeting You for the first Time

I love stories.  I love hearing them, reading them, watching them, telling them and making them.

Stories are the one thing that we all have in common and when I meet you, I'll want to know yours. I genuinely will.  I'm not nosy, just curious.  I'll want to know where you grew up and how you got that small scar above your left eye.  I'll want to know about your first car and your first real break up.  I'll want to why you hate your hometown and yet, why you came back.  I'll want to know where you learned to make such delicious lasagna (I bet it's a family recipe or maybe it's right off the box and though you followed the directions to a 't' you still managed to burn the top layer somehow the first time you made it).  In essence, when I meet you, I'll want to hear the hundreds of stories that form the narrative of your life.  If that seems a bit much, please forgive me.  I'm kind of infatuated with stories.

I can't really explain it either.  Perhaps it's something I inherited from my grandmother (Mammaw could spin a yarn with the best of em', often while spinning some yarn). Or maybe I'm infatuated with other people's stories because I don't see mine as that remarkable.

I was born into a super supportive family and raised in a small town that I appreciate more and more everyday.  I've never really been an outsider or an insider, I've kind of just existed in the middle.  I've had great friendships that have endured to this day and sadly I've lost a few too.  I've fallen in love and I've had love fall on me.

Don't get me wrong, my life has been far from bland, but if someone were to write a biography about me, I doubt Lin-Manuel Miranda would turn it into a musical.

And that's just fine.  I can't complain.  I'm blessed.

Besides, I don't need to have a remarkable story, because you have one already and I thank you for that.  

Now, as I near the end of this post, I have to make a confession of sorts.

I'm not just writing to you, the reader of this blog, but to the future characters that will someday populate the pages of my work.  I have so much to learn from them.

 I've met a few already and heard their stories.  The first one was a Civil War soldier named John and we hung out for five years.  I don't know if I'd be an author without him.  He taught me a lot that I hope to pass on to you in my next post.

Until then, thanks for reading and if we ever meet in the real world, I look forward to hearing your story.